A story of old: "No regrets!"

its been approximately 7 months since we last saw each other.. and when i mean "saw" it means it was the last time that i'll ever have you by my side. i guess the spark was never there even though we clicked at the right time.. For me, it was all worthwhile - just your mere presence was enough for my egocentric facade to shout happily with glee.. And after that moment, there was no more...

I guess it was never meant to be.. coz if it was, then the very sound of your name would lead me into a frenzy. But up until now you haven't changed..well, maybe on the outside you did but in a different perspective, you're still naive.. why do you still live in a world that does not exist; you got so much to offer yet you refuse to give maybe coz you're afraid that everything would disappear.. risk it and i will risk everything too.. but if you leave me hanging, i would stop and climb another window.. Its too hard for someone taking in all the punches while you stand in the sideline pretending as if nobody is hurting...

I have promised myself that i would never again blabber about all the emotional gibberish i've been feeling.. Coz i have realized that those words are just cheap imitation that would never last a lifetime.. why you may ask? its because if i just keep on talking and talking, eventually my mouth will run dry and you wouldn't even hear a syllable of my undertaking..

if you wanna know how I'm doing? Well, every thing's somewhat good.. I'm almost in perfect shape for the 1st time in my life.. i get to do something i've been longing to do.. i have the things that i want( you can never have all) In short, life is still a bitch but I'm slapping back and having fun...
It seems your doing fine as well.. Of course, with a beauty like you. ain't nobody could resist you...
Oh hope you're having fun as well... you seem to have a knack at it...

Sorry if this sound so cynical or sarcastic.. This is just me speaking my heart out... But keep in my mind, that i ain't closing no door... And all bridges are in tact.. i still haven't gave up on you...
Coz there's still hope...

Is there????