A story of old: "a castle of clouds"

Imagine this, in your hands you hold the most precious, the most fragile; the most valuable thing that you have ever laid your eyes upon.. But as you start to grip it firmly so as it couldn't get away, just like sand, it just sips right through your fingers... And as you try desperately to save what's left, reality slaps you in the face that there was nothing to begin with... It was just a mere illusion, a deceitful trick played by your emotions just to fool you in believing that you are alive... Then you begin to ask yourself, why is she still there?

When every thing's seems to be so perfect, there's always something that would go wrong.. a minor glitch then every things starts to fall off... is this the price of happiness? that i need to sacrifice something just so i could experience a moment of bliss... What gave you the right to taint my feelings with all the right signals at the wrong time?! Maybe you'll say I'm just a fool, a puppet whose intellect has only a limited capacity to comprehend the things you're trying to do... i am neither of both, coz for one thing, fools and puppets do not fight back... though i don't show it more often, i do shield myself against your confusing wits and your undeniable charm..

No, i don't wanna make you look bad here because in reality, you're not... There is nothing wrong with being dense because you couldn't outgrow a culture you came to know.. i thought by now you have realized that what you are is not half of what i see you can become... i refuse to believe that we became close just by coincidence, coz there is no such thing. then again, if you are inevitably my destiny, i may have to resort into a much deeper stride to avoid such folly..

Again giving up on you is not in my vocabulary.. i know this would be a long and vague journey and every step of the way i might squander to a different realm.. but i have faith that someday you'll finally be awaken and be free from your egotistical reverie.. As for now, i don again my armor of sanity and guard my castle of clouds..